“Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?” -Matthew 6:26
Change is never easy! We have all those times in our lives when, whether expected or unexpected, something happens that for a brief moment in time sends our life into a spiral of upheaval and need! We ask ourselves over and over again, How are we going to make it? I don’t know about you, but it’s in these times that I am forever guilty of depending on my own strength to get me through, and wouldn’t you know it, everything ends up falling even more apart! These past few months in Baltimore have been just such a spin! I knew there would be adjustment, that life wasn’t going to be a piece of cake, but I had no idea what God had in store.
Throughout the first four months of moving to Baltimore my car broke down twice; I have experienced the misery of bed bugs; I have locked myself out of my apartment twice; I’m up before four o’clock and not back home until four; I lost my gas cap; I’ve gotten three or four parking tickets because I have to pay to park everyday every two hours and sometimes I forget; I almost tripped over a homeless man sleeping on my porch one night- the list could go on. One little trial after another. Now, hang with me- this is by no means a “pat Katherine on the back fest!” This post is to glorify God!
Through all this change, and through every trial, God has continually proved to me that in my own strength I more than weak. I am utterly incapable of taking care of myself. You know those tickets… well for the past two weeks, I haven’t paid a dime out of my own pocket for parking and I’m always on time. Why? There is an older gentleman who comes in to Starbucks every single day who is from Georgia. And for some reason, I’m his selected favorite employee! So, for the past couple weeks he has come in every morning, not just to get his small coffee, but has brought with him at least four dollars in quarters for me to pay for parking. That’s right… everyday! And at 8am, he waves from his seat at the window and says, “Meter Time!” so I never forget. At first I didn’t recognize God in this… but then one day placing the meter ticket on my dash, the Holy Spirit seemed to whisper, “See, even in the smallest needs of your life, I will provide for you! I will be the one to take of your every need. Trust Me!” I had to stop in the moment and just stand in awe of God!
What goodness!!! What Love!!! That He would provide pocket change for me to pay for my parking! In the times that our lives are spiraling and it seems that one thing after another is out of control and that God isn’t in control, He is! I love that verse in Jeremiah as I’m sure we all do, “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.” God is for us!!!! In every situation in our life, God will provide!!! Can I be real with you? These past few months, too often I have complained about God not providing for me, in my moment of need! I have been like Elijah sitting by the brook Cherith, and then God has gently chastised me by sending Ravens (no pun intended) to feed my soul.
So allow me to take a moment and tell you how in each situation He has more than provided- My car was repaired and for the past two months has run without a problem and MORE than that He gave- that’s right- FOR FREE- me a more reliable car; I was able to treat my mattress and get rid of the bed bugs without having to burn down my apartment; miraculously I wake up every new early morning with renewed strength, God provided me a new apartment on the corner of the street my church is on so I don’t have to worry who may be on my front steps, he then furnished my apartment for FREE. Over and over again God continues to provide for me!
God has blessed me, not because of anything I have done, but because He delights in providing for me and me giving Him praise and glorifying Him for Who He is! If you’re going through a time of change, a time of need, be patient! God is working for you, behind the scenes to provide for every tiny need! He’ll provide you with pocket change, to say “I love you!” As life begins to settle down here in Baltimore, I ask you to pray that I won’t stop seeing God in every one and everything around me! He is here, and I am here so that people will see that He is!